i don't know the answer, and i'll be the first to admit it.
but i am pretty positive that hate is not it.
this makes me beyond angry.
i can't believe someone would even think to protest the funerals of innocent victims.
i don't care what niu did a year ago.
i don't care what the victims did the morning they were killed.
i understand very little about how God chooses to move, but i am absolutely positive that God did not send this gunman to punish.
i am positive that God does not hate niu, illinois, or the victims.
i am positive that hate is against everything that God teaches, and that those who choose hate sin.
i am positive that God is grieving the senseless violence and death.
i am positive that God is with those who mourn.
i am positive that God is so much better and so much bigger than what those people at that crazy church teach and believe.
jenni said that she feels violated. i agree.
i was telling my friend scott this morning that i think the closest comparison i've been able to come up with is someone breaking in to your house and trying to harm you.
you're angry. you're scared. you're sad. but i think mostly the loss is that you don't feel safe anymore in your own home.
your home.
dekalb has been my home for a very short time, and i've not loved my time there. it is not my forever home, and i know that.
but it is my home for now. and he had no right to make it hurt so badly to be there.
at work yesterday i cried several times, and i literally felt ill the entire time i was there. i couldn't even bring myself to go through campus or to my apartment...maybe a block from where the shootings took place.
that's
my home and it's not safe anymore.
and if home isn't, what is?
God help us....
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